So I had a “Jesus moment” while driving the other day.
I’m currently going through this study by Priscilla Shirer on discernment and hearing God’s voice. I have been so hyperfocused on trying to hearing from God and attentively, expectantly listening for Him to tell me my life story. On one hand, that’s something productive in my walk with Christ that I’m learning to do, while on the other hand…it is very discouraging. I don’t really know where I got the idea that if I started earnestly seeking God and His plan for me that He would lay out the whole timeline right then and there, but I did, and I got discouraged when the whole plan wasn’t there. Stupid human brain. I’ve gotten so wrapped up in seeking God’s plan that I’ve gotten distracted from seeking Him. So I’m starting to approach the throne rather than the throne’s agenda.
And it hit me while at a green light the other day. In this season of life, I’m constantly in prayer over one thing or another. Career. Ministry. Relationships (or lack thereof). I’m waiting for the green light from God. Every time I think I know what He’s saying and I’m given the green light, I jump. I go immediately, mostly with some slight uncertainty, but with the desire for said thing to happen, so I go for it. While yes, the Bible clearly says when Jesus says to do something, follow immediately, but I’ve learned through this study God’s Word comes with peace and certainty. God works in HIS timing, not mine. While yes, He may have put the inkling in my heart that [fill in the blank] is where He wants me, it may not be just yet. His timing is just as important as His call.
Sitting at this green light waiting to turn left, I had an epiphany. God may have given me the green light, just like whoever or whatever robot runs the traffic lights. When turning left at a green light though, if its just a light, I can technically go, but caution must be shown. I’m not protected. I’m vulnerable, open to being hit. I’m yielding to the world. It’s not always the right timing. God doesn’t just give us green lights to go. He gives us the green arrow and the protected green arrow. Green arrows where we can safely go where He wants us. Things can happen and just because you turn at an arrow doesn’t mean you are in a bubble safe from anyone on the road. Same with God’s plan. It’s not always totally safe and dandy. You may get a ding or into a fender bender (or your right side by the tire hit like that one time in high school…), but when you turn at a green arrow, it was your time to go, you did what you were supposed to. You were where you were supposed to be. You are yielding to God, not the road. God may allow us to be dinged or bumped along the way, but its where He wants you. We are to respond in obedience when God speaks. It’s for your good and His glory.
Make me to know your ways, O Lord; teach me your paths. Lead me in your truth and teach me, for you are the God of my salvation; for you I wait all the day long. Psalm 25:4-5–God will teach you the paths. Life surrendered to Him in relationship with Him via Jesus will result in the Holy Spirit in your life, teaching and guiding in truth and His ways for you.
I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world. John 16:33–There will be those bumps. Fact. Life sucks sometimes. Fact. BUT (that hinge word though!!!), Jesus defeated the enemy. Jesus won the victory! We GET to celebrate and live in this victory!
For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well. My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Psalm 139:4-15–Life is intricately woven. That word choice. Carefully and specifically designed. Goosebumps just thinking about it yall.
And he said to them, “Follow me, and I will make you fishers of men.” Immediately they left their nets and followed him. Luke 4:19-20–Jesus was clear. There was no inking. They didn’t think He said to follow Him. He was clear. God is truth, not confusion.
You can rest in the assurance that when God says go, you don’t have to tread lightly into the world, throwing the utmost caution to what may happen. God gives you a protected green light, your own turn, beautifully orchestrated by Him. The gospel is a really cool picture of this. Was the road to the cross without its dings and bumps? Of course not! Bro, read the New Testament. Was the end result beautifully complete and perfect? I’ll say. #UnderstatementOfEternity
Something hit me today, adding onto this green arrow analogy. I’m currently a nanny and since the weather’s been nicer, my little buddy and I have been taking walks (well…I walk, he rolls like a boss in the stroller). Today was great. There was a cool breeze. The Spotify app was on point with pulling songs from my playlist to play. It was just beautiful. While talking to God, thanking Him for this serendipitous moment in the day, He hit me. I’ve been so tired of seeking and searching to come up with little to nothing. I’ve been frustrated and weary with God. I’ve expected a full detailed outline. God will give me the answers to all my question in HIS timing. He will reveal the details of my life and where He wants me in His time. I’m right where He wants me right now. I’ve been so busy seeking what He wants me to do with my life, I’m missing actually living where He has me. I’ve seen where I am as a waiting room and missed the joy in this season! God doesn’t do waiting rooms. He is a gracious and LIVING God! Keeping with the analogy…I’m sitting at the light, and while I wait for the arrow, I will be aware of what’s happening around me, what He’s doing, while eagerly awaiting His next step, but not forget to turn the radio up and roll the windows down and find the joy in where I’m at right now, right here where He has me.
When Jesus calls, I will respond with obedience. While He has me right here, I will serve Him, fall more in love with Him and see the joy in who He is and where He has me. The green arrow is coming, but why be in such a hurry to go when God’s doing something right here? Relationship involves the big moments, the turns, and the daily walk. Be still at the light, and enjoy it.
Be still and know that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth! The Lord of host is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Psalm 46:10
The friendship of the Lord is for those who fear Him, and He makes known to them His covenant. Psalm 25:14